Phoenix Rising

The Soul Removal Timeline Exercise

One sitting, 3–6 hours.

1. Write the complete timeline of every moment you remember feeling pure, unfiltered aliveness, confidence, or righteous anger before age 14.
2. Then write the exact event that came immediately after that was soul crushing (shame, punishment, labeling, medicalization, etc.).
3. You will find 3–7 discrete "soul removal events."

These are the installation points.

Grief Ritual

For each soul removal event:

• Go to wilderness alone
• Speak out loud to the child exactly what happened
• Cry, scream, punch the ground – full somatic release
• End with: "I see you. I'm coming back for you. I was always coming back."

Most men cry harder here than at any funeral. That's the dam breaking.

Name the Child

Give him the name your parents considered but didn't use, or the nickname only he knew.

From this day forward he is a real, separate personality you are in dialogue with.

2.0 – The Frequency Map (Do This First, 30–60 Days)

Every day for 30–60 days, carry a tiny notebook or phone note titled "Aliveness Artifacts"

Every time you notice even a micro-flash of aliveness — past or present — write it down:

• The way your body felt at 7 years old running downhill so fast your legs almost couldn't keep up
• The taste of your grandmother's specific soup
• The sound of a certain song before it got attached to a bad memory
• The feeling of sneaking out at night when you were 11
• The micro-second of total flow when you nailed a skateboard trick or a piano piece

Write the artifact + exact bodily sensation + age it happened.

Do not judge size. A 2-second micro-flash is often purer than a "big memory."

After 30–60 days you will have 50–300 fragments. 99% of people are shocked to discover they still have access to these frequencies at all.

2.1 – Memory Autopsy (The Real One)

Take the 10–20 strongest artifacts and do a forensic reverse trace:

For each one ask, in writing:

• What happened in the next week / month / year that made that frequency stop?
• Who benefited from me no longer feeling that way?
• What subtle daily mechanism replaced it? (e.g., sugar, screens, sarcasm, achievement, adult content, SSRIs, "grow up," etc.)

You are not looking for the dramatic betrayals now. You are looking for the micro-dosing of shame, boredom, and medication that made the frequency "childish" or "unsafe" or "impractical" until it went extinct.

This part often takes months and feels like panning for gold in mud. That's correct.

2.2 – Frequency Re-induction Loops (The Missing Step)

You cannot "think" your way back into that state. You have to re-create the exact physiological signature.

For each top artifact:

• Re-create as many sensory inputs as possible (same food, same music, same physical motion, same location if accessible)
• Do it alone, no audience, no phone
• When the micro-spark hits (it will be tiny), immediately stop everything and loop the activity for 20–60 minutes while saying internally "this is the original frequency, this is legal, this is mine."

Most people get their first 5–10-second "hit" the same way a recovering addict gets the first clean rush after years — sudden tears, uncontrollable laughter, body shaking. That's the child recognizing the signal.

2.3 – The Daily "Noticing the Theft" Practice

This is the one that actually dissolves the slow strangulation.

Every single night, ask: "What stole aliveness from me today?"

Not big things. Tiny things:

• The 7 seconds of sarcasm I used to look clever
• The 18 minutes of doom-scrolling
• The meal I ate while reading
• The time I dimmed my excitement so I wouldn't look "try-hard"

Write it down. One line.

After 90 days you will have a literal ledger of the thousands of tiny soul removals you are still voluntarily committing every day. Seeing the ledger is what finally makes the rock crack.

2.4 – The Child Interview (Ongoing for Life)

Once a week, alone, ask the child three questions out loud and write their answers exactly as they come (no editing):

1. "What do you want to do right now that the adult is scared to do?"
2. "What lie did they tell me about you that I'm still believing?"
3. "What would make you run to me screaming my name in excitement?"

The answers will be brutally simple and child-like.

Do the thing from question 1 within 7 days, no matter how stupid it looks.

2.5 – The Village Square Test

When you finally feel the frequency for more than a few minutes at a time, go to one of those villages (Portugal, Italy, Greece, wherever) and walk through the Saturday market.

If you still feel like the rock watching the humans, you're not done.

If you suddenly feel the urge to dance with strangers, buy flowers for no reason, laugh too loud, and time disappears — the child is driving again.

That's the only metric that doesn't lie.